Love Is The Answer...

I believe there's a deep, desperate longing in every human being, to be loved. When we feel this desperation inside for love, we almost fall to our knees because of the weight it brings to our tired souls. We long for a touch, a listening ear, or an understanding heart that connects with ours, yet it seems beyond our reach at times. I must confess- I ache for love in so many ways! Don't get me wrong- I am loved by many people. My family and friends are a blessing in my life. But, the greatest ache I have, is to know that God loves me desperately and needs me like I need Him. Am I passionate about God like I should be? No. Do I want to be? A resounding- YES!!! I often wonder if there is something wrong with me when I see others who proclaim to have this perfect peace and unspeakable joy, because of God's love for them. Sometimes I don't feel this awesome feeling. So, you know what I'm doing? I'm CHOOSING to believe in His love for me. I'm choosing to believe in my love for Him, and that long-time relationships such as ours, have moments where the spark is not so sparky! In Jeremiah 29:13, God says we shall seek Him and find Him when we search for Him with all our hearts. I have begun to understand this verse that has gotten my attention in the past, and now- now that I have been going through the trial of trials- I am beginning to know my heavenly Father in a way I haven't known Him before. I'm beginning to see His handiwork in all the saving grace that has spared me from going off the deep end, when the pain refuses to let me go. Of course, the enemy doesn't want me to REALLY realize just what the love of God truly is in my life, and how it will radically change me when I do, so, he tries to remind me of how unworthy I am to be loved by the Creator of this vast universe who can actually dwell in this tiny heart of mine! I know you are probably saying, "Well, God is Love", and that He gave His only Son to die for me because of His love, but, in times of chaos, pain, sickness, and temptation- to grasp this truth...I struggle. I look for that billboard right off the highway that says, "I love you! Yes, YOU!" signed, God! I look for His love around every corner, in every song, atop every mountain, and even in the eyes of a stranger, who might have a word of hope for me. The bottom line is...I need to search the Word for myself, and seek Him for myself, and have an intimate experience for myself, that nothing can take away, or no man can dispute. I can do like David did in Psalm 19:14. I can praise God for all the beauty I see around me in the heavens and in the world, and then ask Him to cleanse me of secret faults, and then request that the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in His sight. That covers all the bases. Well, not to mention the fact that we must live according to His holy commandments, so that when we are in need, we can boldly approach the throne with confidence, and ask what we will and we shall receive. We must trust in His love, and in His decisions for our life. Just because we don't get what we want, doesn't mean He doesn't love us. He cared enough to give us His very best! Trust! That is the key to finding a Love that is the answer to all that you will ever need!